From where this begins, it seems like a long story. I chose to be happy. To be content with whatever comes my way. And gradually this started meaning- loving everything, hoping for nothing, keeping zeroed expectations, bestowing self-less love, remembering the happy things, leaving behind every reason that made me feel low, and trusting God.
After going through times where S died, and everything, I was pulled down to a phase where nothing made sense, and everything was too fragile to deal with. This phase was the Purple Lover's time. The one who failed to understand the reasonlessness needed in this pretty world.
Now that she had failed to know the truths and the right ways to be dealing with them, she needed a total replacement.
So, I threw her away trading the nothingness for The Purple Assassin.
The Purple Assassin is a person who doesn't need reasons to do favors, or to be good around. She is this happy person, who faces the worst of times in the most happiest ways by dillusioning me. Somehow, this person is perfect to be. She traded my sorrows and hard times for better thoughts. And even defeat started sounding perfect to me.
Now that there's nothing left that can pull me down, I've kept this savior assassin for ever. And this purple assassin's gonna do all the problem solving now. 'cause there are better things for me to deal with. :)
Toast to the new me (The Purple Assassin) and to being happy for no reason.
To laughing like the laughter of a child, without a thought of what's in store for tomorrow.
To new beginnings.
To newer dreams.
To better realities.
To being Purple.
To The Purple Assassin. :D