Tracing my steps along the highway, one thought kept perching my head throughout.
I've never felt so untracked up as I feel now.
The sole source of my plan was him, S.
My life hovered around him in possibly every sense. No matter how sound I sound, my plan-less-ness makes me scared to death.
The reason is because he was the reason for everything. I had planned down my entire life to be spent with him, doing this that..now.. Now that he's no more, I'm more than just Direction-less.
There seems an illusion in my head as to what next.
I was someone who planned everything beforehand alongside him.
The worst was, I had never driven on the highway without him right by my side. Now, when I do, I feel like I'm playing a game with death. Not only I suck at it, I can't even take in the thought of doing it without him.
Insanity has started to reign in my head for every nostalgic reason.
At the moment, this feeling makes me feel cracked up.
I miss his existence.
I have no clue as to what am I searching for NOW.